When you make out with a Bear, Peter Pan, an Orange Iguana, and a French Fry.

also when you get two numbers.

 I already have so many ideas and plans for the Castle.

I can;t wait to be there and leave videos on peoples facebook's.

Jenn just won 2 concert packages (one for me and one for her) for the August 6th Boston concert.

they include a MEET AND GREET. 

it is up to Blink if they are willing to do the Meet and Greet, but if they do agree, do you know what this means?

I GET TO MEET BLINK 182. MARK HOPPUS, TRAVIS BARKER, AND TOM DELONGE. 
HOLY FUCKING SHIT.

 I havent updated in a longggg time. so here is what I am thinking now.

1. I am sad because I am fat. I am actually in a terrible mood right now because i feel very very fat.
2. I want to change this.
3. i am going on a full body 12-15 day cleanse. I am only drinking maple syrup, lemon juice, water, and pepper mixture. Added will the once daily salt water mixture. I am afraid of this, but I have looked it up, and it really is NOT dangerous. It's actually really good for your body. I think my body needs this.
4. also, I am starting to run again. I did pretty well at the beginning of summer, and then i stopped. I need to start again.
5. I am going to learn proper stretches this time. so I don't die.
6. basically this whole thing is me whining about being fat. I think it's birth control hormones... but it isn't stoping me.
7. i am tired. good night. maybe a real update tomorrow. 

getting it next week on the top of my foot

http://www.kittybuttons.com/stencils/categories/objects/anchor-1.gif 

 I have a Job at Beerworks in boston now. It's pretty cool man. I'm kind of nervous though because i don't really know what time I'm supposed to get there and stuff. and where I put my keys/wallet... and what my responsibilities are. I mean, I know that's why they are training me today... But I just wish I had a littler better grip on this and actually knew what I was doing. I guess there will be a lot of observing today.

First full day, wish me luck!!!!! I'll be home tonight at like, 11:30, 12ish. Welcome to the world of working late...

 Nicole and Taylor. Come back to meeeeee.

I know that making a playlist for Taylor is going to be extremely difficult. I'm not in love with him, but I have a lot to say to him. I think It might just be easier to say it to him than to express it through songs.

he was better than any shitty boyfriend I've ever had in the past was, and I he has changed me in the most amazing ways. I know that a lot of the time I hate him, and a lot of the time he hurts my feelings, but I know he likes me in the end, and that's all that really matters. That someone likes me, and that I feel beautiful and happy when I'm with them, and that I like them too.

So here goes. I will try my best to make a playlist that explains how i feel, but I just don;t know if it'll ever be possible... it's like I said to nicole last night:

"I have been trying constantly and consistently to put together something that even tells a fraction of the story about how I feel about Taylor and my life and the world. and everything that he has meant to me and everything that he will mean to me. and everywhere i want to go with him, and where and when and how i want to be with him there. and how even when I'm  sleeping I just want to know he's breathing, somewhere close and somewhere that he is thinking about if I'm breathing to, and who I'm dreaming about. but i can't possibly express those feelings. they are entirely intangible to anyone and everyone that isn't me or us. no song quite gets THAT feeling."

I'm sorry for acting all stupid and sappy and sentimental, but this year has been ridiculous, and I have gone throuh a lot of... interesting self discovery, and I genuinely think that he is responsible for some of that. I'm forever in debt to him, and I just want him to know that.

Occasionally, I would like to just... well, die.

I'M GOING TO BE AN OL!!!!!!!!!

I REALLY REALLY REALLY GET TO BE AN ORIENTATION LEADER!!!!!!!!!

,JHVLSDFHG;LREWKHJTGW;GJ

I'M SO EXCITED. 

 that I want more LJ friends. let me at em'.

I'm afriad that if I don't ring in the New Year in style, it's going to suck... as in 2009.

Oh man, I'm nevous and excited and all confused and happy and sad all at the same time

IDONNOWHATTODO.

Happy New Year fools!

 I had a pretty awful christmas.


But I really honestly hope everyone else had a good one.

 SCORE. 

I have an EXCELLENT GPA for this term and I am EXCITED.

*does dance* *does dance* *does dance* *one more time* 

ohh! ohh! ohh!

bahahahahahaa

hahahahahahahahahahahaa

oh man.